loving someone that's so special to me

loving him





love exists in every person's life, same as me.. i'm telling a story of mine, i started to believe in love and i wished that i would make my love more longer and stronger than anyone else. However, this man, almost broke my heart for making me jealous all the time, i told him already, if he wants a girl that is more than me, than go ahead, i just don't want that girl is broken hearted because of him. making him loving me is one big task. I'm telling the truth, but since i talked about his big talent, that is, magic. i keep wanting to talk about him, he asked me something .. he asked if i wanted to learn flourish and magic. what else can i say.. i answered in excited voice, "yess! absolutely!!" he was happy, and i was happy too. we were both happy and excited. then we met in a mall. he thought me magic , flourish , focus and many things, we laughed, we enjoyed.. i told stories, he told about his life. we both have the same interest. he wanted to school to jerudong international school (JIS) same as me.. we were so having fun together. it was the first time we met, but we looked like we have seen before for a long time. he teached me magic and flourish soft and smoothly with his daring hands. when he touched my hands, i was shocked and try to feel his hand softly. he watched a movie with me, which was awkward for me, cause we were not even in a relationship. i rested near his shoulder, and he came closer next to me head. it was romantic for me.. when we went out from the cinema , we had a rest and sitting near with each other. he looked at me, and i shyly took out his decks, and i purposely changed the topic. he seemed to be unhappy, but then i told him that i was too interested on magic and flourish and then his smile came and we were both happy. he teached me so hard, and i do respect him. when he started to feel hungry, he bought a burger, and he asked me if i wanted too, but i said i was full. we sat down and i watched him eating and he started to tell me stories, we laughed together, we shared laughters.he told me, some people thought we were couples, and we lauhged, but inside, i felt shy, and i wanted that to happen, i wanted to be with him. but he doesn't know. i kept it inside so that he still want's to be my friend.he showed me his brother, his friends, his mother, and i ws getting used to it. i tried to smile and not be nervous in front of his relatives, and i did. he told everyone that i can do magic,he was a wonderful friend, not just any friend, a friend that i loved all this time. .when it's time for me to go home, he said it was too early for me to go.. i wanted to stay long, anything in the world, i would want to stay there with him, but i don't want my parents to be mad and dissapointed. so i tried to cheer him up a little.. when i said goodbye, i just don't want to let him go.. i stepped into the car and watched him goback inside. i came back home, and guess what, he changed his status and posted "i'm teaching umie magic and flourish..i had fun :)" ohh god, i cried, i wanted to go back and have fun with him again, it was a wonderful time with him. but when things get worse, an we barely contact and see each other again, i felt sad, i don't want him to fade his love towards me. i just wanted him to love me the way i am.. i sometimes feel alone without him, if i feel sad, he'll ask me why.. and why must i cry when his there for me.. everytime i go to the place that i went with him, i would search for him, if his there. and i would look around for him, sometimes, i feel a bit sad and dissapointed, because i can't see him anymore.. just wish a boy or a girl that you loved so much and turned to be yours an truly yours forever. how would you feel? for me, i would feel happy, excited, i would feel remarkably spactacular girl in the whole world. and keep on loving, even if it hurts, let it out, cry if you want, there's another chance for you love and courage, dont give up, stay where you want and let the one's you love come to you, and be the rite one. believing on the one's you love, and let them believe in you. i love you all for reading and want to hear my story, share your stories with me, if you have time, please, comment to me, i would be happy to hear.. :) be happy and don't loose your smile, cause your smile is the one that makes love more brighter inside. thanks for reading, your welcomed to comment anytime ~miss magician & mr magician~